Christmas Ideas

It's that time of year again and I've been told I need to start working on a list.

A Wal-Mart gift card
A Old Navy gift card - I really need some new clothes.
A iTunes gift card
A Victoria's Secret gift card

Oh yeah, money is always good too.

Since I've Been Gone

YAAY!!! I'm finally 21. And yes, I remember my birthday. For some ODD reason, I don't forget anything when I'm drinking. Hey, if there's a doctor out there maybe you can help answer a question. I really don't get it, when I'm sober I can't really remember anything, I have to make notes for myself all the time. BUT....when I'm drinking I remember EVERYTHING lol. Your probably thinking, "she's probably not drinking enough to forget". No, believe me...I've gotten to the point where my boyfriend has had to drag me to the bathroom, actually put my head on the toilet when I was getting sick, then drag me to the couch to tuck me in.(sorry momma, please don't yell at me) I've been pretty far gone before but never seem to forget what I've done. But I'm told that day will come. Another thing I can't believe, everyone was telling me that once I turn 21, birthdays wouldn't be as fun anymore. OMG. They were RIGHT. It was like "YAAY I'm 16", "YAAY I'm 18", "YESSS I'm FINALLY 21". Now It's like, "woohoo, I'm freakin' 22".
Also, my boyfriend and I have now been dating for over a year now, and he just had his 26th birthday. I keep teasing him because I'm already finding grey hairs lol. He's a lot of fun to be around, and recently we took our first trip together to Dollywood near Gatlingurg, TN. He bought himself an 883 Harley Davidson and loves riding it. He and his best friend are possibly planning a long distance ride toward the end of the month. It made me laugh, he told me that his butt really hurts just after about 2 hours of riding so I looked at him and was like, and you wanna do a LONG distance ride lol.
As far as family goes, I HATE my middle sister and do not wish to speak to her EVER again. Do you have ANY idea how much emotional abuse I got from her. It's like EVERY time I was with her, I had a huge meltdown because of her. Just ask my mom and boyfriend. So It's finally to the point that for the sake of my sanity, I now have NOTHING to do with her. And as for my oldest sister, I guess I have nothing to do with her either. Me, my boyfriend, dad, middle sister, and aunt took a trip to see the oldest in Georgia. The ENTIRE time we were there, she never said ONE work to me. My bf even noticed it. So I guess if she doesn't want to talk to me, then I'm not gonna try talking to her. You know what's funny? Growing up I loved her SOOO much, not only did she protect me from the middle sister who tried to beat on me constantly, but I wanted to be just like my oldest. She was so pretty that I always wanted to grow up to look JUST like her. She had so many friends, and I wanted to be as cool as her. But pretty much as soon as she got married the 1st time and started having kids, she changed. Now It's like I don't even know her. One of my uncles passed away. I thought he was really sweet and funny. I really miss you. My aunt seems to be doing ok since then. We all check up on her. The family takes her out to go bowling every Saturday night after church. They stay out after 11 pm. My other uncle in Ashland City is doing good too. Mom got her dream job with Miva Merchant. Jeff also got a part-time job, I think he said it had to do with major events. My dad has a new girlfriend. I met HER yesterday. I'm still deciding whether I can accept her or not. Sorry, It's just the fact he's dating. I guess deep down I'm afraid that with a new girlfriend, he'll forget about me.
I've gotten big into gardening and cooking. Out on my balcony I have growing, sweet banana peppers, corn, 2 tomato plants, mint, squash, sunflowers, and just added 3 mums. I've also gotten a little braver in the kitchen. I made some old fashioned mac & cheese, and some beef stew from scratch. AND THEY DIDN'T SUCK...YAAAY!!! Well I guess I better go start my day. Cya l8r.

Christmas List

Nintendo Wii Games

Super Paper Mario w/ Super Paper Mario Game Guide
Big Brain Academy :Wii Degree
Super Monkey Ball: Banana Bliz
Chicken Shoot
Wario Ware: Smooth Moves

Silenced

I feel I was forced to take down my previous blog. It appears that I no longer can express my feelings in anyway, shape, or form. Just for people's GENERAL information, I DO NOT PUT LIES UP ON MY BLOGS!!! Because of that fact, I didn't see a problem with that. Also, this is my PERSONAL space. I use this space to express my feelings since I am not able to elsewhere. Another little fact, did you know that just a handful of people read my blog? So far only one person has said anything. But sadly, it seems I can't express myself ANYWHERE (and people wounder why I'm depressed). So for now on I guess I will just sit back, bottle things up, and become MORE depressed. I guess as long as I'm keeping to myself no one will care.

My Birthday

For my birthday, we went to The Cheesecake Factory. I had this white chocolate raspberry something. It was soooooo good. I really liked how the white chocolate was inside so every time you took a bite there was a sweet kind of crunch. After that, Daniel and I walked around the mall. I REALLY wanted to go inside Tiffany's jewelry store because I had never been in one before. I didn't even know there was one in the south. I thought it was a New York thing. But of course, knowing my luck, it had just closed. I'm told that if I didn't have bad luck I'd have no luck at all. I think A LOT of people can vouch for that considering how much of a klutz I am.

Finally An Update On Whats Going On

I know I havn't written in AWHILE. Since the last entry, I've been going to college and am now on my final quarter. I've been talking to dad and have decided to go back for most likely for general education. I've also been looking for a job, I realize I have no experience but what Other people are failing to realize is that EVERYONE has to start SOMEWHERE. DUH! I can't believe my car is almost 1 year old. WHAT HAPPENED? I now have a really nice couch and recliner that I found at Big Lots. Thank you dad. Today is my birthday I am now 20. YAAAAY! But what has made me the happiest, is that I am now in a serious relationship with the sweetest guy. His name is Daniel. We've been together since May 25th. June 2nd was our first real date. I met him over at Axis Direct where my Uncle Rich works. Tonight Daniel, myself, Uncle Rich, Steffanie and David(friends of mine), are going to dinner at the cheesecake factory for my birthday. I will let yall know how it goes.


P.S. shout out to my sis in PA, luv ya hun :)

Thursday

My uncle says that I should be getting my car thursday night. From 4-6 I have orientation at my college, the we should be able to go pick it up.

Starting On My Own

Today I am going to my college to pay my first semesters tuition, and I might be doing it all by myself. I start school the 25th. My orentation is possibly next Saturday the 23rd. I'm told I will be able to drive my car to school. I'm told that I should be able to get it next week.